I was walking around the college where I work, going to and from buildings when I saw someone that looked like an old friend. Remembering the friend led to very brief memory flashes of times spent in college and in high school, people I used to hang out with and choices I made, things I did and didn’t do. I was (and still am) a pretty conservative guy with decision making, not taking risks or doing anything really dangerous. I wanted to be more of a risk taker but never really had the balls for it. There is a temptation to wish I had been more risky, maybe tried to be more dangerous in the past. But then it hit me: I made good decisions and I should stand on them, even celebrate them.
How much different would life be now if I hadn’t exhibited patience or even discipline when the opportunity arose for me to do something crazy, even illegal and I chose not to? I know I wouldn’t probably be married to the amazing, wonderful woman I am because I wouldn’t have been the man she was looking for. I wouldn’t have accomplished the professional achievements I have at a young age (running a radio station, host/producer/owner of a syndicated radio show, connected to influential people across the country).
So without going into details, because TMI still exists, your baggage in life still has charges, and they can be big ones if you’re not careful. I have spent a good part of this past year digging through my personal baggage and discovering stuff that I never knew was there, or at least hoped it wasn’t as bad as it really is. The cost of it has been closeness with friends, being suspicious of people, and a lot of anxiety. Dealing with it is paying off, but it’s still a tough battle. So, I had this realization that I wanted to share about life baggage and how it only flies free if you choose the right paths. Anyone else agree or disagree?
I’m in my office, papers all over the place like a business tsunami blew in moments ago. It’s a real mess. The only thing that’s in perfect place is my music on i-Tunes, succinctly set to my ear’s wants. And just like clockwork, one of my favorite songs comes on, “Throw It All Away” by Brandi Carlile, the Seatle alternative-country star who’s blazing a trail through the country with tours and beautifully crafted covers of Johnny Cash and Simon & Garfunkel.
This leads me to a little search, or quest if you will, of the chance that some other indie artist has covered this Carlile tune I’m so fond of. I start with i-Tunes and type the song title. It turns out that Zero 7 has a song of the same name, and there are many covers to it. No covers that I can find for Brandi’s song. I head to Google to see if that might bring different results. Nothing on the first page or two. I don’t really have the time or energy to do an exhaustive search. But in the process of trying to find this, I discover a version she did of the Simon & Garfunkel classic “The Sound Of Silence,” which I understand she’s playing more and more of on her tours. So I spent some time here, and it made me want more and more for us to be able to get her in my city for a gig. I’ve been working on this behind the scenes for a while and it’s actually something in the works. I hope it works out and we can welcome her in 2011. Wouldn’t that be something.